My Esther Essence

24 November 2007

I'm having a terrible headache now. But i juz can't slp. I'm pondering over many many things. Money, friends n relationships. Everythings juz comes n tumbled on my way.

Money issues is often the hardest n easiest to solve. Borrow easy but return hard. It's always the case. But dun worry frenz, i'll return. For i'm a person tt kp my words. At least tt's wat i'm going to be. MOney seems to fly away so easily from my hands. Haiz.... I wanna buy a money locker!! OMG! Muz use the word buy. Means use money again.. -_-'''

FRIENDS. These 7 letters were once part of my memories. The PDOs. The nine of us were as close as brothers n sisters. Eating, playing, skipping lessons n studying together. 9 different characters, backgrounds n completely strangers, met. WE r the most fun loving, most pro active n always the limelight wherever we go...

Spending hours doing it... Juz making the borders is giving me nuts!~! -_-

I dunno wat's tt big gap btw us. Seriously, i DUN wan these to happen. For i mean wat i say. I stand out n say it's ME! To my frenz who are reading these:

Victor - Sometimes, i really tink u r nice. U r commited in watever u do n always try ur very best to complete it. For that, u r very commentable. BUT, do u noe sometimes, ur actions n words tend to hurt ppl? U may tink it's a small issue, but as ur frenz, we MIND wat tt's said out from ur mouth. :(

Bernard - Among us all, u r one of the quiestest n mature type of person. U aim high n make sure u met ur require standards. U r those tt wans to mark out smthg in ur life. U dun wan juz to be an ordinary guy if u were given chances to. Therefore, u r so contradict now. BUT, sometimes, things will not go ur way. And things are not as smooth as u predict. HOwever, it doesn't mean IT'S THE END. U still have a long long way to ur goal. U ve friends ard u n i noe there will be there for u. Some actions tt u do, DO affect us. In many atimes, ur silence, ur disappearance cause us to be confused. U left questions marks on our head. We juz wanna be a friend where u can lean on. :(

Jeremy - Haha... U r the best partner tt i can ever find. My jokes n ur jokes can really make them ROFL. There can nv be silence when me n u is ard. Tt's y we became frenz the very first day. :) U r special. At least, u gave laughter to everyone ard u. U r always the HAPPY NUT. However, some "unintentional" of ur jokes n comment do give a -jab- to ppl ard u. U may tink is a comment or word. BUT, it's a hurt. U r our frenz, therefore, we dun mind. In fact, we r used to it. DO U NOE, U ve left a deep impression n a very special place in everybody's heart? I'll tell u y. Juz imagine, when we ve all left, 9 of us would definately tink of ur lame jokes n laugh to ourselves. THAT's for sure. And i noe everyone will agrees. Think bout wat i said. :(

Xue Yu - U r so quiet!!! Haha... A very good gal. In everyone's eyes. U may seems quiet but there are many times, u are tinking bout things. Things tt's in ur life. Though u r not a loud person, but we still love to include u wif us. Reasons, ur splashing of cold water on me n jeremy's jokes is often the biggest jokes. LOL... everyones will laugh like mad. However, it's not good to be so quiet. WE dunno wat u r tinking. And if words we said or any of us said something tt hurt u, WE DUN NOE. If some actions we did tt makes u shun us or wat so ever, we dun mean it. Maybe i'm too sensitive, but watever the case, tis is wat i observed. :(

Serene - Um... the eldest among all. Always ve the Da Jie Da pattern. A role model to us as well as somebody whom we can concide our problems to. Capable n far-sighted. U r one tt is able to do major things. One tt makes sure everything is on proper place n THINGS getting done. For tt, i'm sure everyone can vouched that. BUT, i heard tt there's some misunderstandind btw us n u. We didn't cast u alone. It's juz tt u are often not in sch. And when u came back, u r juz not aware of wat's happening. And we dunno how to convey things to u. If we really make u feel strand, den i guess it's really a misunderstanding. Juz think of the Royal Empire. The team where the whole school of teachers and students noe bout the 5 of us. The leader who makes countless effort in seeing us getting things done n in time. It's YOU. Serene. So why do we wanna outcast u? :(

*The above comments is from me. Esther Chang Ru Hui tt said it. I mean no harm in reprimanding ppl or judging ppl. It's juz some words tt i would like to say to the PDOs. Words from my heart. Had no intention of hurting anyone or stabbing anyone. Pls be objective n think bout it. Are our friendships going to be the past? *

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I noe i'm no angel either. Therefore, i welcome u guys to speak to me. Wondering y i didn't wrote Ting, Fen n Reg? Lol... Cause we told each other off before that already. Haha... Jk... I really hope the 9 of us is back again. Everyone, including me, pls tink bout each other's mind n action. For everything tt we do, DOES AFFECT each and everyone else.

I'm juz wondering something. I suddenly thought of smthg which it do really really make sense. Womens are the most mature when they met a guy whom she dun love. BUt the most childish when being wif a guy she's deeply in love. Agrees? Haha... I guess as time goes by, i'll know wat i wan. Being wif the guy i love. Being childish when i'm wif him. Letting him dote on me. Day by day, side by side. I'm juz thinking of a fairytale. The princess n the prince lived happily ever after. Um... sweet. Izzen it? :)

ESTHER was here at 11/24/2007 12:16:00 AM